So ... Tiger

I have not entered anything in such a long time.

To be honest, I became very uncomfortable with people reading my blog --- ie. my thoughts/feelings etc.

Like Tiger, I have been accused of being a very private person.

That is why I fully understand the mindset Tiger feels - minus the 12 girlfriends.

For me, I limit my sins to guitars & golf clubs.

I am somewhat self-conscious about the fact that I was truly depressed about the golfer that I admired more than I am willing to admit. I had his irons (2 sets) /driver / tiger headcover --- ad nauseam. I like to think (delusional) I have a very miniscule resemblance of Tiger's game. Hard swinging - long driving - high, fast spinning approaches --- spotty putting.

Mostly I liked his toughness ---

---- but it turns out he is weak like me.

It is these gaps in my own life that scare me most - the way I don't love my wife enough - I am too hard on Jack & Natalie sometimes - I get frustrated & quite angry too easily --- I should be 50 lbs lighter ... and 100 other issues.

Weakness is a curious flaw --- for me it is not a cognitive imperfection - I know WHAT to do - I just have lost my drive. How does a person lose their drive? Exactly, where & when did Tiger lose supremacy over the self?

Where does it start? --- life slowly extracts & siphons the stamina & dynamism from what was a powerful discipline inside. At least that is what happens to me.

How does one recapture that avidity?

I am not sure --- But I know it is not derived from 12 deplorable women who are pure vomit on the innocent wife & children.

BUT MOSTLY --- it is the fault of a selfish, infantile, egomaniac.

What scares me is that Tiger is inside of me too ...